Pocketful of sunshine<3

irony at best

and so u say this

u say that

u convinced me to stay

yet ur actions

they prove ur words otherwise

had u any IDEA

how i felt

it was irony at best.

tell me now

how many of u have tried to grab something wonderful

only to lose it to someone else.

and to make matters worse

it went the other way

when u were jsut in reach

oh i know it sucks.

its heart wrenching.

and ur back to fucking square one

watching love from a far seat

oh ive been there

for 18 years and counting

(im talking about the special one here. not frens and family. their love doesnt falter.)

im not the only one tho

most of the times im cool with it

there are just times i wonder

how does it feel

to have someone always there for u

yeah well ur parents always are.

but at my age.

we dont really talk tht much now do we?

its just different

somehow having that special someone

seems to make people go oh so crazy

they seem different

when they are with them

they are softer

when they are with them

the world doesnt matter

its magical

like a rainbow during a scorching day

like sunlight during the rain

like, well the emotion of love.

i have yet to dip my feet into the water

of pain and pleasure

love hurts

the only cure is to love more

does it really work tht way?

i would like to know

does love overcome everything?

i wana know

does love make u feel invincible

i wana know

does love uplift u

wana

know.

thru all the pain uve gone thru

u still keep searching

is love taht addictive?

or is it just alluring?

or is it to some

an accessory to have a bf/gf ?

it is becoz everyone else have them

why not me?

is it the trend?

it a wicked world out there

nothing is waht it seems

i wana find the truth

the story of love

tainted by none of deceit

i want to know its clarity

i want it pure.

to carve it myself.

so intricate

ull get lost

so beautiful

ull never want to throw it away

give me the chance

let me investigate the perfect love

if i could be a part of your world

leave all this behind

i will investigate a perfect life with u

if i could put it in another way

if words could make it right

i want to investigate a perfect love with you

This could be perfect. -Sugarcult:Investigation.

i LOVE the emotion: Love. its magical.

Labels: LOVE. irony at best.

7:28 AM
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School's in. Booooooooooooo la.

so.

hair cut.

dyed black.

now short.

awaiting it to lengthen.

do help if u have any methods to quicken this. ;D

so like i said

and then there was change

we live our lives.

getting comfortable in a circle we built.

then.

BOOM.

change.

and ur totally messed up.

now waht do u do?

like always.

we humans ADAPT.

its a cycle.

everyone knows.

yet when they get hit.

they;re all like.

ah shit.

now waht.

i cant go back to the past.

im stuck!

to this i say.

reach up.

even if theres nothing.

always.

reach up.

never back down.

i wana live like i know when im leaving.

will that then change the way i look at things?

will taht change the man i was to become.

will i care not.

and be reckless.

a fren said taht it wld be wonderful to be like the ppl in FlashForward.

i say otherwise.

u live in fear.

if u see death,

despair,

and destruction.

elated when u see promotions

and meeting the love of ur life.

but really?

it takes life out of ur hands.

or forged by your own.

let life be a surprise.

i pray for that much.

i have much on my mind.

idk waht to put down.

sometimes its hard to interpret wht im trying to say.

but thats just how i am.

being alone is not being by yourself.

being alone.

is being without you.

lead me to the path i belong.

the path i seek.

guide me with ur light.

tear me away frm the shadows.

where i lay dormant.

for there was nothing to reach up to.

but now i know

reaching up.

pushes you.

till the day comes.

when someone passes by.

and helps u out.

time will tell.

never rush things.

for time.

will.

tell.

i fell into a hole.

a hole i dug myself.

a hole meant for me

a hole i fell over.

so i sit.

staring up.

grabbing dirt.

and watching it pour down my hand.

ragged and dirty.

tired and sweaty.

yet i feel no need to get up.

to get out.

i dug this hole.

a hole meant for me.

a hole i dug.

for me intended.

i heard a voice whisper.

as the days wore on.

each day.

it whispered.

reach up.

just reach up.

i heeded none of it.

the voice.

an ominous anonymity,

i declared.

oblivious to it i became.

the hole i dug.

the hole meant for me.

the hole seems to go deeper.

the hole seems to get darker.

the whispers got louder.

now not just a voice.

but voices.

it trinkled down my ear.

and it finally hit a spark in my heart.

and i stood.

reaching up.

i reached till my muscles strained.

i reached till my sweat made a pool under my feet.

i reached till i almost lost hope.

yet the voices spurred me on.

days went by,

and soon i saw a hand come down

i was saved,

frm the hole.

the hole i dug myself.

a hole meant for me.

meant for me to be saved from.

sometimes u gota let them be,

till they've fallen hard.

for then they will lsiten

for then they will heed.

for then they will change.

rush nothing.

risk everything.

live for somthing higher,

die for something.

i LOVE the oldies. take me back to the 70;s!

10:24 AM
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Wii.Pool.Shisha. SWITCHFOOT!

so went out today.
met wei guang at je near to 1
he was as always.
late!
trained to somerset
met them at idk waht room its called.
tk,jacq and steph were wii-ing
sidenote: i havent met these bunch for months.
haha
played bleach
got owned by tk
but i owned wg
then the wii give problem.
disc wasnt going in.
then when it finally did
it was not a co-op game
then go change again
played carsssssss
haha
steph beat jacq
lightning vs the old man
i beat wg.
peace van vs (i cant recall)
then wg vs tk.
wii shut off.
time up.
lloll

went to eat at bbq chicken
i cant bilif koreans like chicken!
i mean.
huh?
and the stupid ads they showing.
the girls were cute.
but they only showed their god dang fried chicken,
when their shop was named.
well
bbq chicken!
retardedddd

bla bla bla

played pool!
i won 3 games straight.
nyaha
give jacq chance also win.
waht to dooo

aishah came
then went to far east
ate chicken rice
franjly speaking it wasnt nice
then 167-ed to raffles hotel
and 2-ed(its legs. 2 of them u have there. walking.) to the shisha place
wanted peach
but as always.
wasnt fucking available.
oh great!
so went for sweet melon
was nice
ate hummus
but they so not including the pita bread
so bought also.
then lo and behold
it wasn't enough
then bought another
it was 4 bucks per basket
BASKET!

then went to topshop
checked things out
then to aldo accesories
steph bought bangles
way niceeee
haah
jealous somewaht
xD

ohhhhhhh
ekin saw me!
said i am HUGE
and she so short
i swear i din see her
even tho i was looking ard
did i like
looked OVER her?
lloll

all in all
it was a fun day
oh and yeah
SWITCHFOOT rocks ok.
the lyrics are deep
the music soothing the soul.
all hu appreciates music.
have a listen
i swear ull be uplifted.

red
blue
pink
black
yellow
green
paths coded by colour
each different
each holding memories
each representing ur walk.

lifes not just fun and games
its everything
forget not
frm the days u were nurtured
to the day u learned how to breathe
forget not the happy times
nor the sad times
forget not the heartache
nor the pleasure
forgot not the hate
nor the love.

this is a walk to remember
its the walk of life.
till u walked to the ends of time.
ull look back and see a sprectrum of colours.
ur walk
ur path.
ur life.
no one elses would ever be the same.
the journey is but all there is.

i LOVE peach. like seriously. i do. ;D

Labels: pool, shisha, switchfoot, walk.life, wii

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